Friday, August 15, 2008

Party Party Party....ugh!

So after the ex and his cousin left the same evening Scotty Boardman, my new Director of Sales, arrived! Clean, clean, clean and organize for the new arrival while trying to get some work done. We also decided to take our web administrator, Brian, to go see some gators before Scotty was to land at 9:45pm. Basically you can look here GATORVENTURE to see what non-beach, non-party, natural fun you can have in Miami in just a few short hours.



So Scotty arrived and the next few days we attended the Internext convention in Hallandale, Florida. We were able to meet with all of our business associates in a very fun and liquored-up environment...yee haw! I got to play Ms. Pacman, Donkey Kong, and Frogger with a friend from Maleflixxx and I totally kicked his butt! Bu-ya Jeremy! But my brain and hand remember the hours upon hours I spent in arcades as a kid.

On Saturday Dakota Rivers arrived for a Serbia release party I was going to throw Sunday evening at Twist. We basically went right from the airport back up to Hallandale. After a few meetings and drinks we wandered down to the lobby to eat at Azia, one of the Westin Diplomat's famous restaurants. As we were waiting for a table that was suppose to take 1 1/2 hours, out popped Dennis Rodman and three girls from the bar. At 6'7" he towered over all of us, but went right to the tallest one of the group, Dakota Rivers, and told all of us that we were too good looking to be waiting. The manager of the restaurant came out and Dennis ordered him, politely of course, to give us a table, which he did, leaving our 1 1/2 hour wait behind. Later in the evening Dennis came back, sat down, and chatted with us for about an hour. He's a really cool guy!





The following day we were all trapped at home since massive thunderstorms rolled through Miami. Oh, and Dakota and I went out a bit late, so we missed the morning sun and woke up just in time for thunderstorm time. After relaxing all day Dakota, Scotty, Rich and I headed to Twist for our Serbia release party. The night started out great with Pussila asking Dakota and I questions, having fun, and passing out DVDs. As the night went on and things got a bit crazy, we all had to call it a night at 4am.

The following day we all trekked to the beach to have a lazy day splashing around in the warm waters. That evening we all went out to Chat Noir at Dream in South Beach. Chat Noir is my favorite night out in Miami due to the great mix of people (both straight and gay) and the wonderful entertainment. Rich and I always have a lot of fun, but when we invite people like Eddie Diaz, Dakota Rivers and Scotty Boardman, well it turns into a really wild night out.

Now it is time to chill, get back to work and get back into my usual non-party routine! (For a bit)

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Mom, work, Miami, break-up finalized

Lots going on, just no time to sit down and write. After Oregon I went to see my mom in Northern California. Instead of lazing around all day watching TV with her, I decided to start to clean out her garage and do some necessary maintenance to her back yard; she bitches a lot about things, but never gets around to doing it. After hard labor at mom's joint I drove to LA to get work done and get away from my boyfriend/ex-boyfriend/whatever. Long drives give me time to think and process info and that is exactly what I did. I knew I had to get rid of the boyfriend for good and refocus on work....sounds kinda shitty, but its not like I have no reason to let him go and the reasons to keep trying with him kept getting thinner and thinner.



I arrived in LA very late and then decided to refocus on getting some shooting done. I went to San Diego to get one shoot done that kinda turned messy. Right after announcing my retirement from being in front of the camera I had to jump in and pass the camera around to the other two models. I drove back to LA not 100% satisfied, but what can I do. Back in LA I started to organize another shoot with a guy that I have been trying to use for a long time. We met and right away hit it off. I really like him as a person and he is very sexy. I also was able to hang out with my good friend Chi Chi LaRue and my girlfriend Veronica from high school, so LA turned into a pretty good trip.



Once again I drove back up to Northern California for a quick day with my mom, a quick evening with my lesbian cousin at The Cafe in San Francisco and then I grabbed my ex and headed back to LA by plane. I let him go to the beach with a friend while I did some work and then he had one of his anxiety attacks so I went out myself. Actually, I have felt very alone in this relationship for a long time. The next day we flew to Miami where his cousin had arrived from Italy earlier on in the day. I really had to suck it up and deal with situation that made me feel very uncomfortable. The last thing I really needed at this point in time was to entertain my ex and his cousin and try to get work done at the same time...oh, and have my ex sleeping in my bed with me.

I did feel as though I needed to entertain so I took my ex and his cousin to Key West. Both slept nearly the whole way there (the drive is actually very beautiful once you get past Marathon). A quick overnight and we returned to Miami where I tried to hold it all together. I took my ex out one night where he eyed a physically attractive guy, got drunk, then the guy pushed him over to a not so physically attractive guy. It totally looked like a bait and switch and the hot guy was the bait. The other guy could not keep his hands to himself, specifically off my ex's ass, so I warned the hot guy, then I asked my ex if he really wanted the other guy touching and grinding on his ass. At this point my ex was drunk and would probably have sex with anyone to get to the hot guy, so I just became very enraged. I shot two warnings to the other guy, flipped my ex's hat off (since he was being belligerent and drunk letting the other guy grind on his ass) and finally pimp smacked the other guy and threw my beer on him. Sorry, but I am very protective of guys I think/thought were my boyfriend and don't appreciate random guys touching him inappropriately in front of people I know.

The next two days were completely frustrating for me. My ex ran off with the hot guy leaving his cousin to fend for himself (totally inappropriate) but came back at night begging to stay in my room (purely shitty). I made a decision it was over. I just can't be disrespected in such a way and to see how he abandoned his cousin for 2 days doesn't fit within my norms. All the anger built up into a huge argument between Rich (my business partner) and myself also! My ex and his cousin finally left on Wednesday and I resolved to do my best from communicating from him any further.